[ riku would want her to do this. if she doesn't do it on her own, he'll keep nagging at her. she has to do something. ]
If you're going to be close to him, you should know that when he had to make a choice, Kylo Ren chose power. He chose the Dark Side. He chose the deaths of millions, the forced conscription of children, and war against his own mother. I couldn't save him. Now, I fear the best thing I can do is stop him.
[ there's no apology. she won't make one when it still feels like daenerys betrayed her in some way, choosing kylo ren. she won't make explanations for her behavior either, won't point out that it was kylo she hadn't been ready to face when she was obviously right to steer away from daenerys and her old apartment in order to steer away from him.
still. it's easier, not looking daenerys in the face as she says this. it's why she'll say it to daenerys, and not to any of her new well-meaning housemates yet, or the other ren. ]
I'll understand if you don't reply. But I wanted you to know.
[A week passes before she replies. In truth, she was not going to reply. Absent an apology, Daenerys sees no reason to entertain conversation with Rey for the time being.
But information about people she is living with -- that is an allure that is difficult for a queen to resist, especially when she feels at a disadvantage to start.]
Between the Light Side and the Dark. Between leading a government worse than this one that steals children from their parents and makes them soldiers and destroys planets, and joining the Resistance, like Morningstar. With me. With his mother. He chose death and destruction and power over what was left of his own family.
[There it is: the piece she has been missing. She understands now, why Kylo Ren would keep it from her and why Rey draws it like a shining sword now.
She will need to confront him about it, and it simmers angrily, disappointingly in her gut.]
From what I gather, your Resistance and his mother hurt him long before he came to rule. It cannot be so surprising to you that he would not wish to return to them.
[That doesn't excuse the rest -- but she is not going to give Rey that pleasure just now, when she can withhold it and deal with it on her own time. There are other things she could say, about power and politics and those that war leaves behind -- but that is not what Rey came here for.]
She made mistakes. She wasn't perfect. But he's killing people, Daenerys. Enslaving the galaxy under an empire of fear and violence.
[ rey wants to believe that leia wants to make up for those mistakes, that she would take them back. but she doesn't know this for sure, so she can't make the claim. it's only a feeling. and anyway, it's beside the point of his disproportionate reaction. ]
An Empire of fear and violence that was established before him. Do you expect something like that is torn down overnight? Certainly not while the mind is occupied by other things. Unless, of course, you plan to kill all of those children they stole in your war.
[This, she knows from experience. Tearing down government is what she has been doing since she was old enough to know what it meant.]
Yes. You are right. Slavery is inexcusable. The bondage of children for war, even more so. But given that you are on opposite sides of said war, I don't imagine you know very much about what is being done about that, do you?
Believe what you want. But I was on Kijimi, shortly before I returned here. I saw the soldiers knocking on doors, taking children from their families. He's had a year, and it hasn't slowed. It hasn't stopped. He's not going to. This is the empire he helped Snoke build. The only difference is that now, he's the one in charge of it.
If you care to know what I believe, it's that neither of you know or understand what the other struggles with. You are both convinced you have the proper solution, for one reason or another.
Only one side is trying to eradicate any trace of the other from the galaxy. The First Order won't stop until the Resistance is wiped out. If you think a compromise could be proposed, you're wasting your time.
You are lying to yourself. If you did not see something within him, you would not have treated him as you did before you left. But it is not for me to convince you one way or the other. You will need to navigate that on your own.
[ she had hoped that daenerys might change her mind. that she would turn away from kylo as well, that rey could then apologize and know daenerys would understand why running was all that she could do. but daenerys puts downs roots instead.
she realizes, then, that this will keep happening. people choosing sides. and she has to wonder who else she might lose. ]
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If you're going to be close to him, you should know that when he had to make a choice, Kylo Ren chose power. He chose the Dark Side. He chose the deaths of millions, the forced conscription of children, and war against his own mother.
I couldn't save him. Now, I fear the best thing I can do is stop him.
[ there's no apology. she won't make one when it still feels like daenerys betrayed her in some way, choosing kylo ren. she won't make explanations for her behavior either, won't point out that it was kylo she hadn't been ready to face when she was obviously right to steer away from daenerys and her old apartment in order to steer away from him.
still. it's easier, not looking daenerys in the face as she says this. it's why she'll say it to daenerys, and not to any of her new well-meaning housemates yet, or the other ren. ]
I'll understand if you don't reply. But I wanted you to know.
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But information about people she is living with -- that is an allure that is difficult for a queen to resist, especially when she feels at a disadvantage to start.]
A choice between what?
[Context matters.]
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Between leading a government worse than this one that steals children from their parents and makes them soldiers and destroys planets, and joining the Resistance, like Morningstar. With me. With his mother.
He chose death and destruction and power over what was left of his own family.
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She will need to confront him about it, and it simmers angrily, disappointingly in her gut.]
From what I gather, your Resistance and his mother hurt him long before he came to rule.
It cannot be so surprising to you that he would not wish to return to them.
[That doesn't excuse the rest -- but she is not going to give Rey that pleasure just now, when she can withhold it and deal with it on her own time. There are other things she could say, about power and politics and those that war leaves behind -- but that is not what Rey came here for.]
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But he's killing people, Daenerys. Enslaving the galaxy under an empire of fear and violence.
[ rey wants to believe that leia wants to make up for those mistakes, that she would take them back. but she doesn't know this for sure, so she can't make the claim. it's only a feeling. and anyway, it's beside the point of his disproportionate reaction. ]
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Do you expect something like that is torn down overnight? Certainly not while the mind is occupied by other things.
Unless, of course, you plan to kill all of those children they stole in your war.
[This, she knows from experience. Tearing down government is what she has been doing since she was old enough to know what it meant.]
Yes. You are right.
Slavery is inexcusable. The bondage of children for war, even more so.
But given that you are on opposite sides of said war, I don't imagine you know very much about what is being done about that, do you?
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But I was on Kijimi, shortly before I returned here. I saw the soldiers knocking on doors, taking children from their families.
He's had a year, and it hasn't slowed. It hasn't stopped. He's not going to. This is the empire he helped Snoke build. The only difference is that now, he's the one in charge of it.
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You are both convinced you have the proper solution, for one reason or another.
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The First Order won't stop until the Resistance is wiped out. If you think a compromise could be proposed, you're wasting your time.
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I am not talking about your war.
I am talking about you, and Kylo Ren.
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[ the man she'd loved had never stood a chance against kylo ren. she sees that now. ]
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If you did not see something within him, you would not have treated him as you did before you left.
But it is not for me to convince you one way or the other.
You will need to navigate that on your own.
Was there anything else you wanted to say to me?
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[ she had hoped that daenerys might change her mind. that she would turn away from kylo as well, that rey could then apologize and know daenerys would understand why running was all that she could do. but daenerys puts downs roots instead.
she realizes, then, that this will keep happening. people choosing sides. and she has to wonder who else she might lose. ]
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